Another Day with mixed feelings....

Why don’t I get through anything I try to do? Today we had our elimination round for the selections of ‘good debaters’. Our school has got 3 invitations from different schools for inter-school debate and there were six people to be selected in all. I knew that it would not be an easy task to get selected from the students of std. 10^th to 12^th, which brim with great debaters. But still, I gave myself a chance having a little hope of getting in. I prepared my debate well (atleast I think so), I m not saying good but yea, it was quite ok to stand with the pieces written by the veterans in this field. And, I was quite confident with it. But in school, when I got to know about the rebutting round, I got nerve.

I thought I would go later and as there was no time left, the judges didn’t hear the complete debate. That’s where I went wrong. May be the people who were the first ones to speak their parts got the advantage and got selected. Well, I would like to clear that I don’t hold grudges against anybody, or I am not envious too, but enraged with myself. You know it hurts to lose, even if you are not good at something. I just felt a bit dejected that time, but yeah, I am glad that my best friends got in (no sugarcoating here) and I truly did. Why shouldn’t have they?? After all they are the BEST. But now I m ok with it.

And you know, I surely was very confident and never felt jittery while exhibiting my piece.

But the other half of the day was pure bliss. It was so wonderfully great. You know, sometimes you just want to forget all your apprehensions in life, everything and just want to be free and become a small carefree child again. That’s what I did to perk myself up. I went to a near by park with my friend (now what I m telling u may sound silly to you and may prove me a lune) and enjoyed the see-saw rides. YES. You read it absolutely correct. It was so much of fun going on the slides and the swings and rejoicing the see-saw rides. I got a bit conscious too thinking what other people might be thinking about us but then I just didn’t give a damn about it and did what I wanted to. It was fun. Believe me. Try it out sometime. Wow. The other half of the day made me forget all my unhappiness of the morning. And it made me high-spirited again. Now, I’ll try to be better the next time. Wish me luck.