मेरी नन्ही बहन

सोचा नहीं था कि होगी वह खूबसूरत इतनी,

कि देखते ही उसका वो मासूम चेहरा मन खिल उठा,

उसकी वह मुसकुराहट, उसकी वह खिलखिलाहट,

उसे देखते ही मेरे हृदय से निकलती है दुआ ही दुआ|

उसका अजीबोगरीब तरह से बडबडाना,

और अपनी न समझ सकने वाली भाषा में समझाना,

उसका वह प्रेम प्रर्दशित करना,

और अपनी कोमल आँखों को झपकाना|

उसके आने से चारों ओर रौशनी छा जाती,

ओर मुरझाये हुए पुष्प भी लगता मनो मुस्काने लगे,

उसके नन्हे-नन्हे कदम जब धरती पर पड़े,

तो ज़मीन पर पड़े पत्थर भी सांस लेने लगे|

उसका फूलों सा नाज़ुक शरीर है इतना कोमल,

व उसका पवित्र स्पर्श लगे इतना निर्मल,

अपने छोटे-छोटे हाथों व अँगुलियों से जब वह ताली बजाये,

तो उसकी आँखों की चमक देखकर जी खुश हो जाये|

याद बहुत आती है उसकी,

जो रहती है वह इतनी दूर,

उसकी एक झलक भी नहीं देख सकती,

न मिल पाने के लिए जो हूँ मजबूर|

अब तो केवल तस्वीरों को ही देखती हूँ उसकी,

और उसकी प्रतीक्षा में काटती हूँ अपने दिन,

सोचती हूँ अब जब आएगी तो,

अपनी मीठी आवाज़ मुझे दीदी कहकर बुलाएगी|

अब तो वह और भी बड़ी हो जायेगी,

थोडा थोडा सब कुछ समझने लगेगी,

खेलेगी वह मेरे साथ और शितानी भी करेगी,

तब मैं उसे झूट-मूठ दान्तुंगी और उसके रूठने पर उसे मनाउंगी|

यही सब सोचती हूँ मैं रात-दिन,

जो मुझे मोहित कर देते हैं पल भर के लिए,

जल्दी से बस यहाँ आ जाये वो,

तो रोशन हो जाए मेरे जीवन के बुझे हुए दिए|

I Feel So Lucky

Every morning starts with a fresh breeze.

Don’t know why but it keeps me at so much ease. 

The salubrious air makes it easy for me to breathe. 

And I feel happy in my heart so deep. 

I see the birds around me chirping. 

The bugs on the booful flowers are wandering.

Those clouds above my head are drifting. 

And all this makes me stand below wondering.

I am happy that god made me blessed. 

My life is now free from any kind of stress. 

In the autumn all the withered leaves had shed. 

And the new leaves of hopes and aspiration have come back. 

I feel glad to have so many great people around.

I am happy with one, not many friends in abound. 

I felt my life was gross but I was so wrong. 

Everything now goes so smooth and sound. 

I am not sure whether the dark days have gone from my life or not, 

But I’ve kicked all the worries away just in one shot. 

The doors are closed for grief and the sorrows are out.

There is nothing now that can make me taut. 

My eyes shimmer and the bliss can be seen. 

They flaunt a jovial bright sheen.

I have understood what it really means. 

Life is too short to live and should be made clean.

I thank my parents to give their unconditional love. 

I thank my that friend who was with me all the times so tough. 

I thank my other fellows who hated me or loved me truly so much. 

I feel so lucky today for my every gain and loss.

A Candid Confession

I thought I’d been lie to,

I couldn’t believe that it was true,

I didn’t let my heart accept it,

For I didn’t want another time to lose my bliss.

But still somehow my heart didn’t support my mind,

It ditched me and let itself be deceived another time,

For I knew it would hurt me as I knew the truth,

But my heart was immature and alone it stood.

It was melted by those sweet words and sayings,

It couldn’t understand, it was just another game someone was playing,

It floated within the sea of those sugary utterances,

For it felt sweet and it made it feel exalted.

But my mind was worried about my heart,

It knew it’ll happen again and break it so hard,

Then my heart would lose all the hope,

And it’ll doubt about anything later for sure.

My mind was so right with everything it thought,

The heart was being hurt again in another shot,

Now it is torn, battered and wounded,

It feels as if chopped by a knife into pieces.

It doesn’t bleed nor does it hurt,

Whenever it speaks, nobody hears a word,

It has been numbed and frozen,

The jauntiness from it has been stolen.

My heart isn’t very depressed or sad,

Nor it has suffered anything that it can claim to be very bad,

It’s just that it has stopped to expect,

My trust has been broken and it can never be back..

She Lost

Once upon a time

A girl sang songs

She used to shine

She continued to sing them

As long as she could

As beautifully as she should

She received standing ovations

She was the heart of every party

She was the soul of every evening so bright

She was the winner of every right competition

People gave her felicitations

But she didn’t know why

She fell in love with a guy

A bright jovial boy

For whom she could even die

He was unaware of this

They both thought their lives to be bliss

He sang songs too

But she also sang

So well, he never knew

Once he heard her singing

He went numb at her voice

To find that she was so good

He thought she was better than him

He praised her as much as he could

As long as he could

He started to underestimate himself

And told the girl she was a better self

She shed a million tears when

He said she was better

She thought what she could do

To change his mind

But he was damn determined

And his qualities, he undermined

She felt some weight too heavy upon her

Her thoughts, every moment, she stirred

Once came a time she thought she could

Made her love believe he’s good

And finally came the time

When fate was in her favor

The boy won

She was happy but in her efforts

To make the boy believe his self

She lost herself!

I Still Pray

Sometimes I wish I were never born.

With no light in my life,

How can I believe in the presence of dawn?

Whatever I’ve in my life is sheer pain.

Nothing called happiness,

I have been able to gain.

I believed that my life was blissful.

With every good thing around,

The world looked so beautiful.

Once I knew how to smile and laugh.

And a tear never ever,

Could be spot in my eyes too dark.

I found delight in everything around.

With so many friends, I was so glad,

I don’t know why this sorrow, now I’ve found.

Friends, I called them and loved them.

They were treacherous and so disloyal,

I didn’t have a clue and I couldn’t tell.

People remained sweet before me and lied to me.

All of them took me for granted,

And never, in real, cared for me.

And so I was so love-deprived,

With no glee in me,

And only grief in my heart, deep inside.

All those, whom I considered still true,

To me; has gone too,

Leaving me behind, pale and blue.

I don’t know what to say or do.

But I stand here, with folded hands,

And I pray to get someone who is true.

But my prayers still don’t get answered.

And it hurts, with me too forlorn.

And my body, left shuddered.

I have no one to guide my way.

Even my soul betrays me,

And I feel awful today.

I wish to scream and shout.

But alas! No one can hear me.

And this is all what I am about.

I want to cry and die out.

But I can’t even do that,

As people have expectations from me around.

I don’t know what to say or do,

But I stand here, with folded hands.

And I still pray to get someone who is true.