Emotions matter (??)

Well, I don't know. People talk about emotions, sentiments, sensitiveness, etcetra etcetra. But they don't really give a damn about the feelings others have. They would go on and on and on about how much hurt they are when others don't take their emotions seriously. How people 'play' with their emotions. But then later on, they forget their own experiences and keep hurting others through their deeds or may be words.

Then you have another category of people who regard emotions to be bullshit. They claim themselves to be "unaffected" by emotions. Like, it won't matter to them if their friends don't wish them on festive occassions, or it doesn't matter (according to them) if their friends dont often give them a ring or don't talk much at school.. so, they do the same with others who are, may be, full of these emotions, who may get 'hurt' by these things, who may wish to get some attention in this manner. For them, such people are simply attention seeker. But later on, if these attention seekers do the same with the same brigade of guys, they would feel depressed and may be shout on them. Believe it or not, Accept it or Deny it, it does hurt a lot. A normal human cant be a saint to just let go these things and remain unperturbed by such things and still lead a jovial life. 

This was the first case. Another thing comes with the category of people who want love, who CRAVE for love. They say, they have everything but love they deserve... (even if they get it). But it doesn't bother them if they hurt their friends by doing the same with them and depriving them of the love they deserve.. 

So in a nutshell, we all are humans and we all have emotions. It does matter to US! But the thing is we dont care how we easily take others for granted and consider others to be some great people who would forgive you for every petty thing you'd do to hurt them. Our heart brims with emotions. And emotions do matter a lot. 

WHY?

I walk a few steps with fear in my heart.

I think over and over again whether again will I be able to start?

Whatever all I had restrained myself from have come again to me.

But I dont want to get into it and just want to break free.

Time again has taken a turn and brought me to the same place.

I can again feel the grief of all those lost days.

After a short span of mirth, the sorrow has come yet again.

And making me believe that not for a long time, the glee with me can remain.

I again carry the burden of all the wrong deeds I've done.

And the memories have been regenerated that long time back I had burnt.

I feel sick and helpless with everything that is happening around.

After getting over it all, I now again feel so down.

Why is it that happiness cannot stay with me for long?

Why am I the only one who is every time proven wrong?

Why is it that every bright day is swallowed by the dusk?

Why is it that everytime my present is replaced by the past?

I am tired of getting bothered every time by all this.

And tired of praying to God to let me also have some bliss.

I stand in the middle of the desert and stare at the clear sky,

And pray to the Lord, to answer all my questions, WHY.