Failure. Why?

Yet another chance of proving me slipped out of my hands. I tried my best to accomplish but to my dismay, I couldn’t. I took part in two debates which were recently held in school, and guess what; I couldn’t even get the runner’s up credit in both of them. Damn. Why does it always happen with me? ONLY ME? Ok, I agree that people were better than me and I am quite satisfied with the ‘justified’ results. But why only I am the one who is prize-deprived in this school? I am so accustomed to failure now that I don’t know was success is. Well, nah, I’ve not lost the confidence but you know, every time I think that ‘may-be-this-time’ but am finally shattered when I see every body (yea, EVERYBODY) win but me. Now what shall I do? Nothing. May be debating was never my cup of tea but I never minded giving it a chance, hoping that it might prove to be a cakewalk for me, and I think I was not that bad. Atleast I mustered up the confidence to face the entire crowd on speak my mind without any fear. But I also lost in something, I had a flair for. Yeah, you guessed it right. MUSIC! I lost in that part too. Urgh. I feel so low whenever I come to think of it. Persevere, persevere and PERSEVERE.

False Impression

I was broken beyond the limits in the 4th period when sir didn't give me my maths test paper and categorized me in that group of people who were constantly talking in the class. I was completely appalled when he called out all the names except for mine (also including the names of mauli, esha and akshita) and accused me of 'talking' even when he had already warned us that he won't be giving the papers. It came as a bolt out of the blue for me. Imagine how you would feel when somebody, for no reason, punishes you for a mistake you haven't committed. Not justified. I am not saying that Oh! m so innocent, I am so quiet, or I don't talk in class, but I am just expressing and telling the truth that at that time, I was only completing my pending work in biology as I'd already been 'praying' to get a free period so as to complete my work and wanted to finish it as soon as it could be possible. But, I was dismayed when I was being questioned about my obedience at that time. Had it been my fault, I would have really gone for an apology by heart, and I actually went to sir to ask fr forgiveness, but nah... He didn't even listen to me. The other three girls, who are my dear friends, were smiling, so still I can digest that sir must have thought them as to be violating his so-called 'rules' but me? I toh didn't even took a chance to curve my lips. I don't know when did he see me disobeying him. It ruined my entire day. I had been so jaunty before that, singing and gossiping merrily in the recess but just a false impression of a teacher made me cry for atleast the next 4 periods in school. My friends then tried to sooth me down and cheer me up by telling me that those marks wouldn't matter at all, something I already knew but what bothered me more was that Out of the 55 students, he only found me to be talking. Now, you only tell me, wouldn't all this make your eyes moist?

And it started raining

You know, we the students of std 10th have such a tedious life. I returned back to my home and slept without having my lunch (i don't eat much these days) as I had to go to my tuitions today. I was in the midst of a profound sleep when my brother came and woke me up. I felt like yelling at him but it was not his fault. Actually he did that 'cause it was time to pick up my bag and cycle to the tuitions. But I didn't mind as the weather was so wonderful. And also I had been missing it since three days because of my unit tests in school. And to make the matters worst, I didn't even appear for the mid terms. So, I HAD to go there. But look at my hap. As I called my friend from her flat (she also goes with me), it started drizzling. I was like - grr. Her mom said that we should not go but I said it's okay. Anyway, as we were en route to the destination it started raining heavily, not SO HEAVILY that you get completely drenched within no time but yea, it was somewhere between a drizzle and a Heavy rain. We were pacing fast but it was high time that we took a plunge of returning back. But then Shreya (my friend) said that it's a little more but we were not able to see properly 'cause of the spects. Well, we finally took a turn and returned back. It was wonderful to cycle and getting wet in the rain. After a long time I had enjoyed such a time. It was fun and had a gala time here.
So, two big good things happened. First, I could enjoy the rain and get wet, that otherwise would not have been possible as my mother wouldn't have consented me to go out. Secondly, I escaped another tedious class of tuitions. And yea, Now am at home listening to music! :D

Where are the answers?

This blog is a pure reply to Shobhit's recent post. Ok, I very much agree with him about my imbecile-intellect. I have a tendency of vowing to start learning the course for exams since the beginning and sorry to say but I perpetually break it. And then I pick up my book the 'night' before the exam and somehow learn everything. I call up people and tell them (e.g. Shobhit) that I am over with my not-so-difficult course, often grumbling about it (I hate rattafication) and when being asked the easiest of the questions, a BIG 'oopss' escapes my lips. Where has my 'reserved' course gone? Who stole it? Oh! Actually the problem is that I m already preoccupied with so much of knowledge that my memory stick is full. No scope for further information. (Wink). So you know, if I force myself with it, it would have devastating consequences. And regarding me often smashing into people here and there, it is a ‘mere’ accident. Lolz. Ok ok , I won’t deny the putative fact that I am a little (see the sarcasm) clumsy but then it’s alright till it entertains my friends (I would not consider anyone who would laugh at me in a serious manner). So, I am happy, but yea, next time I’ll make sure that Shob doesn’t get a chance to pose questions during a talk! :D