WHY?

I walk a few steps with fear in my heart.

I think over and over again whether again will I be able to start?

Whatever all I had restrained myself from have come again to me.

But I dont want to get into it and just want to break free.

Time again has taken a turn and brought me to the same place.

I can again feel the grief of all those lost days.

After a short span of mirth, the sorrow has come yet again.

And making me believe that not for a long time, the glee with me can remain.

I again carry the burden of all the wrong deeds I've done.

And the memories have been regenerated that long time back I had burnt.

I feel sick and helpless with everything that is happening around.

After getting over it all, I now again feel so down.

Why is it that happiness cannot stay with me for long?

Why am I the only one who is every time proven wrong?

Why is it that every bright day is swallowed by the dusk?

Why is it that everytime my present is replaced by the past?

I am tired of getting bothered every time by all this.

And tired of praying to God to let me also have some bliss.

I stand in the middle of the desert and stare at the clear sky,

And pray to the Lord, to answer all my questions, WHY.